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Post by tbone on Jul 21, 2011 22:38:41 GMT -5
why do i fall hard
and wait for them to catch up
only to move on to some other unsuspecting beauty
wasted a lot of years living this...it speaks volumes in such a short phrase
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Post by echo on Jul 22, 2011 9:40:02 GMT -5
why do i fall hard and wait for them to catch up only to move on to some other unsuspecting beauty wasted a lot of years living this...it speaks volumes in such a short phrase Thanks for reading... why did you feel it was a waste?? I would like to hear your thoughts on this feeling.. I want to overcome it. |
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Post by tbone on Jul 24, 2011 10:54:55 GMT -5
I believe the waste is from knowing what I am experiencing now makes me feel sometimes I wasted years not having this...but on the other hand without those previous experiences I might not have appreciated where I am now or maybe not have come to this point that I am...life is a long strange journey...so there are no wrong turns just choices we live with or work thru and continue on...I use to try and do everything I could to make someone fall hard for me and then when they did I would lose my nerve and find a reason or make up something to cause a flaming car crash so to speak...never realized it was a fear of being totally intimate and then someone having leverage on me...and being subject to intense pain and suffering by being crushed myself...I finally found someone that lets me be totally myself and has shown me no reason to to be completely open free of fear and I am going to keep it that way as long as possible...hope that helps? lol I might have just typed a bunch of Irish jibberish like I have been known to do...hope it helped
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Post by echo on Aug 23, 2011 15:47:13 GMT -5
I believe the waste is from knowing what I am experiencing now makes me feel sometimes I wasted years not having this...but on the other hand without those previous experiences I might not have appreciated where I am now or maybe not have come to this point that I am...life is a long strange journey...so there are no wrong turns just choices we live with or work thru and continue on...I use to try and do everything I could to make someone fall hard for me and then when they did I would lose my nerve and find a reason or make up something to cause a flaming car crash so to speak...never realized it was a fear of being totally intimate and then someone having leverage on me...and being subject to intense pain and suffering by being crushed myself...I finally found someone that lets me be totally myself and has shown me no reason to to be completely open free of fear and I am going to keep it that way as long as possible...hope that helps? lol I might have just typed a bunch of Irish jibberish like I have been known to do...hope it helped I agree that there are no wrong turns in life.. but these choices I'm making are making my life HARD. I did the losing of my nerves too and I know the flaming car crash..  Trying to get over it. I hope that someone in your life gets rid of all your fear and frees you!  |
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Post by R.E.T.S. on Aug 23, 2011 15:53:31 GMT -5
Hmmm. Excellent scribe.
This way of living, in my own life, was self destructive. If by no other measurement, I've always looked at "wrong turn in life" as whatever is self destructive. Just my two cents.
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Post by echo on Aug 23, 2011 16:17:04 GMT -5
Hmmm. Excellent scribe. This way of living, in my own life, was self destructive. If by no other measurement, I've always looked at "wrong turn in life" as whatever is self destructive. Just my two cents. It is self destructive. I really do not know how to get away from it. I truly do believe some day someone will come along and take this part of me away.. and then I'll KNOW they are the one. Maybe... LOL |
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Post by R.E.T.S. on Aug 26, 2011 16:58:37 GMT -5
I hope it happens for you. You deserve to be happy- For real.
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